memaw

MEMAW,




When I get lost I close my eyes and even though I can't see your face, I feel you with me everyday. I



feel you shining down on me. I'll always see your face. The corner of your smile, and all the little things



you did for so many in this world. None of that will face away, you are much more than just a memory. I



can't hold your hand or look into your eyes and when i talk to you iit just echoes in my mind. I found



some peace today, knowing I'm coming to visit your grave. I grit my teeth and swallow all my pains and



selfish pride I use to hide behind. Flames of pain stained my eyes. Time burns my soul all shades of



grey. Shifting through the smoke and lies with these metal prison bars blocking my mind. I miss you so



much, but I lie and say I'm fine. I stay complacent to my feeling nad let others pile theirs on me. I'm



tired. Please keep watching over me, I don't feel I can go on much longer. I'm breaking down, I hate



everything in this world without you here. I wish you could see all Brenden's dreams come true. I just



want you back! I want you back nad healthy and I can't have that. He could have taken me. I have no



good inside of me. Your heart and soul was GOLD. I just want to scream - Let me out of my head.......



AND still the world just keep on going. It has no way of knowing that you are gone.



I love you dearly and miss you tons,



Brandy Dawn